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A Look at My Work

Here are a few examples of different writing styles from Creative to Analytical

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A Nature Encoded

Final Paper of My Journalism class

A Nature Encoded

Remember the cul-de-sac from whence you first stepped out from the stoop to see the world? Did you believe it ended at the horizon of the street turning out from “all there was”? The first experience of being born into a world with blocks becomes the world. A block though is composed already over a now dispossessed trail called landscape. The block’s mathematical limitation comes apparent when you see its attempt to adhere to this trail being that even when it is copying the circle it still prefers a bold edge. In its production it has split further and further from the awareness of its environmental morphing to instead find awareness in the mean of quality for a conveyor line process deemed efficient. There is some kind of coined expansion necesified here for the assumed growing need for a “more”. But the “more” needed is not quenched by the repetition of this design therefore the “more” ceases to exist in the design. This allows the design to further engross. We pronely think the clogged old sink just hasn’t gotten enough to drink.

In this evaluative exam to the concerns of realism implying structure code if you ever find yourself lost in this essay consider the syntactic error in relation to metro design. A word that has been purely made up and is in no dictionary would be a zone with less constrained purpose (or purpose altogether unknown), or an unfilterable sentence, where it idly “runs on”, would be the maze-like quality found in poorly (sometimes intentional for economic safeguarding) poised streets that lead unintentionally, or if a sentence attempts to shuttle the awareness to the admonished concept of seeing through autistic eyes what does that sector look like? Is it a building, a person, or an unpruned body of land? Does it conceive repair or does it promote the problem it needs? And hey you! Where do you fall in all of this?

 

 

Dwellers in the land: A bioregional vision that needs you

I feel that I was aware of the meaning of bioregion before I even knew its history and its school of thought. For me the context of bioregion started in my awareness to the different experiences I would have on a playground—versus, say, the forest—and how that cross examination brought one to detail the many factors that create a certain experience; from the food you eat, to the place you lay your brown popsicle (that comes out of your rectum if you weren’t following me), from the way your feet are curved, to the species of moss that grows there. If such a sensitive issue does occur it makes you wonder how such careless transformation of an existing environment didn’t consider how long it took for that environment to emerge or the already perhaps perforated benefits that were provided.

But what are the already practical benefits to this old growth of ecosystem I needed to respect and understand; it’s qualities it provides if not taken advantage of? Kirkpatrick Sale wrote a book and in it I began to understand the concepts behind the word bioregionalism and its wisdom. Devotion to nature began in our heritage. To an age, I vaguely remember, where tribes worshipped polytheisticly “In virtually every hunter gatherer society that archeologists have discovered from the Paleolithic past, in almost every rudimentary society that anthropologists have studied in recent centuries, one of the central deities—in many cases the primary god, worshipped before all others—was the earth. (pg.5)” Along with some of these tribes that saw nature as a provider, before the word dial-up, were the Iroquois, the Bantu, Greek, Navajo, Mbuti, Naskapi, Celts, Yaltas, Finns, among others who started a language that retained this identity. For example “the Indo-European word for earth, dhghem, is the root of the latin humanus, the old german guman, and the old English guman , all of which meant human.(pg. 7)” Language as it evolves though, if it loses meaning of one word, as if one was approaching second stage Alzheimer’s, language skips back and forth roasting frantically until it finds a different word that almost fits.

Words and science have a luscious relationship with one another. Science has been succeeding in quantifying each speck of dust and “proved…that the earth, the universe beyond it and all within it operated to certain clear, calculable, and unchanging laws, not by the whims of any living, sentient being. (pg.15)”. So language had to catch up. It couldn’t exist in an animistic world any longer where the Greek Gaea (pronounced jee-ah) was a living being of consciousness. Slowly words like the Bantu mata¹, lost their phonemes, their credit-less spirit which sparked wonder and sensitivity towards nature. Instead now nature is just there to be used and language has been running behind science in trying to speak over human matters, to the beyond! When yet it has changed that we live in bodies and verse our range of dreams.

This book has made me reevaluate the setting that language can intercede in making consciousness change polarity. Yet the same word but with meaning still left to the individual to apprehend its dichotomous history that only ceases when we seek to centralize its purpose. So as builders, now we’ve become, it is beneficial for us to inspect our spaces and see how they could reverse containment.

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¹“the invisible force inherent in all parts of the universe.(pg. 5)”

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The philosophy behind transportation as it stands, for example, creates more need as its imminent goal is based around instantaneous travel between the larger existing infrastructures. Sure if a line is drawn from L.A. to Seattle all the towns along the way will have access to the route as well. But as this model trickles down in scale it becomes non-existent for the premise of having straight lines between smaller towns seems erroneous since the thought of travel is to get away from the place you live rather then see other places slightly similar in their bioregion to see how they live. As it stands you are shipped from place to place and have no firm grip on where bioregions begin and end because in the act of globalization everything has the same amenities for transportation is all about getting avocados everywhere. Does it surprise you that the previous statement wouldn’t keep starvation from happening? It would seem as avocados are shipped from their hometown to all over that the world would have food. The only skiff though with that situation is that the dependency will most likely leave someone having to wait at the back of the line. The only difference is this line might last for 3 to 18 weeks (depending at this time on demand which is denominated through money). Why is it that where you live isn’t where you eat?

What has the block done to our connection with the land? One block meant for food and the other for us to plunder its minerals we kill for. Despite the conditioning preoccupying the capacities at which we live our passive support is living in a world made of blocks. Because of this categorization being how we have filed our society there is no infrastructure available to have as virtue to the awareness of our ecological change. There are resources already at bounty around us but have been redeemed as a waste of space that instead could be “used”. In school it is taught what we must do but we have yet to grasp knowing is what we have done will do.

Perhaps some of the most useful information from the book that helps put such into perspective revolves around looking at the shift of paradigm and the effects that precede such veritable and careful changes. From Scale we learn how far we have leaned toward a nation/world aspect instead of communities of the regions. Economy has become one towards change/progress and competition. What is the danger of stability, conservation, self-sufficiency, and cooperation? Polity punishes any type of radical political view as if the of polity was to rule people. Its fear mongering, of being threatened, leads us cheated with no desire for our leader. The act of centralization, hierarchy, and uniformity leans towards an already lived history that brought other civilizations to their knees. If decentralization was the paradigm shift how much, that has been built in place, could support such a change? It depends on how much you want your monoculture maintained.

To live in this day and age one tries to conceive what is important in life. I’ll admit that I have met Patch Adams and I believe him when he says sincerely “love”. We live in a world so oriented away from day to day interactions with people that the core value of progress seems to find a way to need less people. This to me defines how we are overwhelmed by how many of us there are. But the act of self-preservation would only lead to more dangerous avenues where the last piece of cake is fought with knives. Have we run out of something to give, to learn, to teach? In a world filled with blockades what they promote is their own support to which life, which needs the most support of all, loses its factor.

My mother would look me in the eyes as a child when I cried telling her I could feel the death and pain of the world. She’d sit at level with me and say “look into my eyes.” Sometimes I’d struggle just to peek but finally when I gazed back into her eyes she would say “look, see? See the love in these eyes?” I would just keep looking into those blue smiling voids feeling the tears and fears sweep over me. “You are the most amazing beautiful being that’s come into my life. I love you Sean. I love you so much.” How much I needed to know that; I didn’t know until now. Now I see how often we live without that devotion because our environment raises us otherwise (news flash: we create the environment).

Every word seeks to clarify our stance in the world. As we change the way we speak we learn how it changes us. The same goes for our actions while they can be seen with or without words. It is then a question of when is it that we forget this. When is it that we seek an artificial compatibility rather then the challenge of being impenetrable and susceptible at same time? One of my false statements this quarter was I am many different people and I give each person equal time and place to speak. I believe we are conditioned to seek out only certain behaviours but what we aren’t taught is that understanding of behavior isn’t the prevention of certain behaviours from happening but understanding each behaviours effect on your body and the bodies of others. Your feelings aren’t out of control it is your body that takes it to heart and the environment that changes. There is no rushed way to go about it except in admitting what it is you need then, just maybe, if you’ve connected with your community and your earth, the place you’ve been looking for might just become revealed to you.

We shall not cease from exploration

And the end of all our exploring

Will be to arrive where we started

And know the place for the first time. –T.S. Eliot “Little Gidding”

A New Method

Research paper on Healthcare

We are living through radical changes as the U.S. tries to reinvent how care can be

implemented. How to actually satisfy a patient and give them what they need to

live when they can barely stand has always been more difficult then it sounds.

In America after the health reform we hoped to change how health care is seen in the public eye by making medicaid available to any individual with low income status. To meet the demands of the hard-working doctors who would might then have such a large wave of new patients coming to them who would now have coverage we had to look at how we could put less stress on the doctor. If you were to have patients participate in the research of healing what ails them then the doctor would be more available to attend to other patients. Already there has been much work done to open the accessibility of health care through app technology and encourage the use of newer technology covered in the HITECH act. As newer technology develops how can we can we make accessibility more secure, more available, and more beneficial?

I currently live with a roommate who suffers from PTSD. It leads to an addictive personality that overdoses on anything to make the traumatic visions go away. It wasn't until her episodes became impossible to hide did she then admit the following month of her condition and that our participation in helping her would prevent further episodes. As an undergraduate it is difficult to live with and support someone who had no phone and needed my attention as well did my studies. The real life education served in me to see how creating technology that was accessible to older generations could alleviate patients from feeling stranded or far from help when they needed it.

So far much progress has been made in creating web-based patient portals where patients can order medication refills, communicate with physicians, schedule appointments, and look at there reports. It allows for cross-referencing to occur more frequently and ensuring less mistakes in diagnosis. For my roommate if this was available they could have had sorted out why they couldn't get there prescription. She then wouldn't have then been off the medication long enough to have induced hallucinations. But computer technology can only so far meet half way where meeting face to face with a patient really allows us to show there is care. Technology still needs to catch up if it can't give lab reports past 90 days or translate a foreign language. What makes technology so alluring is that we know what it is capable of but the line between the idea and the execution of it can be rather long with other ideas.

One recent Act the PHIT act seems very promising in looking at how we can award healthy behavior vs. setting up only measures for when you are sick. It is a positive example of how technology can be taken. For those who would need a tablet or a government funded phone imagine every time you checked online you were given 1 hour to use the internet for anything else. Or finding a way to link the social forum with the health forum so the two could share info and disperse what patients are feeling with other patients. It all requires tentative care around the HIPPA act with consent. It could change how patients see illness and injury as they are welcomed to share info about there therapy or reports and empowering individuals to look into their health.

Patient Engagement Technology strives to reach out from the hospital. Networking with other hospitals to deliver specific technology and procedures to surrounding smaller hospitals allows patient to access what is available to them while talking to professional. It's all a matter of information distribution. When we are able to get the information into peoples hands quickly and efficiently the information can then be used for making the best decision for all parties involved. In Anne Fadiman's The Spirit Catches You And You Fall Down we see how much health care crosses into the realm of culture and beliefs. In order to respect them we must step down from our seat of authority and step into the point of view of who we are serving (or trying to serve).

With any technology we must experiment; try a patient interview over a video interface if they can't come in but need professional attention, try giving patients special permissions to see what they do with responsibility they can be trusted with, examine how technologies can “crossover” social gaps.

Anne Fadiman depicted how Dwight Conquer good stepped into the role of the shaman for the Hmong people while others didn't see if they were disrespecting others. I feel that in the same way we can use technology in favor of peoples unique situations or it can merely be a tool that further creates non-compassionate health care. The heart to help may seem like a drop in the ocean but the ocean itself is made of drops of water.

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The Imaginary Self

Media Works Essay

                                                                                                           The imaginary self, though mostly derived from a variety of texts in                                                                                                                          psychology and philosophy, in this project it is chiefly examined through its                                                                                                              image portrayed through art and more specifically film media. I was                                                                                                                        immensely inspired by each artist and method we examined through                                                                                                                       seminar and lecture and I found myself wanting to try at one point or                                                                                                                       another many of the techniques used and examined. Some of them                                                                                                                         definitely found their techniques used in my final product and others were                                                                                                               conceptualized but I never was able to execute them. Bjorn Melhaus definitely inspired me and I found myself wanting to examine the body voice connection though still echoes of self-exploration emanate in my project exploring where I begins and other ends. Still the greatest influence still on me and this piece comes from Abigail Child’s work with the “cut”. Her exploration of language I felt in film media successfully dissects film from its allotted dialect of following time which demarcates past, present, and future in a medium that disseminates time more radically then our vision can perceive.

My project I would say is composed of two parts. One chapter explores the self through narration and the narrator being controlled and overwhelmed by the images exposed to his or her self depiction. The second part explores the other taking over the role of self dialog. I wondered if one could portray one looking at their imaginary self and exploring that as our self depiction being cracked in on like a safe heist. This section was where the beginning of my concepts began and pre-production as well as I noticed and realized that filming those scenes would require pre-filmed scenes to be projected and used in the final juxtaposition. This project in scheduling and shot listing was a great challenge and though in much of my scripting I was unable to get as many actors in the same room as I wanted it still was a very successful experience in directing which I’ve only had experience doing with my brother at a younger age really. I was definitely trying to retain a lot of the ideas for as with each time I wrote this sequence I noticed delineation from the previous revision because I realized that despite the idea I was getting more as I went along. But as I continued further from the written ideas I realized I missed or forgot some necessary shots that would’ve helped build the imaginary world and better create transition. I truly missed putting together shots of me with subtitles to be projected to the audience to create a very interesting conversation between the viewer world and the film world.

If I could explore one idea further I would’ve liked to put together more thoroughly my concepts of the room within a room within a room and play more with duplicated moments delayed in time by incorporating perhaps direct audience participation perhaps or asking it some way. Using the same room and then asking the audience to follow who they think they are on the screen would’ve been an interesting piece to watch and see how people interacted. If there was thing I would’ve changed about my interaction with this project it would’ve been to get rid of other responsibilities whenever there was moment I thought it would’ve been good to write. I think if that happened I could much more time into rewording scripts and ideas until the mark for me.

As far as working in a group where we were to share and help develop each other person’s ideas I found it a wonderful opportunity but difficult to orchestrate times that everyone could get together especially since not everyone was easy to get a hold of. I mostly got together with Simon Porter out of all our group members. I think if all our projects were somehow approachable in some type of writing form it would’ve been more helpful and accessible for each of us to write creative critical critiques.

When I first started on this project I created a large fantastical idea in my head and had very little to show it at first but then I found myself more and more able to explain it while my film material didn’t do my words justice. It was then through editing that I finally was starting to see or imagine how I wanted to expand and explore the ideas I started out with. My first cut was without many parts that I was interested in including but I was satisfied with the responses I got. I thought a lot about what kind of mind or state of mind I was wanting to represent and I realized that I hadn’t established any transformation through the film as much as I wanted so I tried on my second time by adding narration that was outside of the frame and from a voice looking into these images.

The title of the piece “I Named You” came from my interest into looking at how words get into our minds. I realize that the title didn’t or doesn’t have relative origin or place holder that it is pointing towards describing, and exploring, the concept further. Putting more time into scripting and balancing the audio tracks and subtitles more evenly would reduce the data overload concept as being the main concept. When Hal Foster was describing an installation by Stan Douglas he goes to elucidate what I believe to be similar with my project though bringing it out of the context of history but the contrast of self and other.

“It juxtaposes moments of rift—in subjective experience as well as in cultural history—when other versions of self and society are glimpsed, lost, and glimpsed again. “Obsolete forms of communication,” Douglas has commented, “become an index of understanding of the world lost to us.” To recover these forms is to “address moments when history could have gone one way or another. We live in the residue of such moments, and for better or worse their potential is not yet spent”

Though obsolete doesn’t really contextualize properly the form of which our bodies are being appropriated into different forms of self with the imaginary and has more to do with obsolete technologies and cultural movements I think these imaginary pieces are recovering how we have and could see ourselves. Obsolete could relate very strongly to this idea of words as well that I was tackling because there is something in how we can’t always obstruct these ways of us seeing each other—and its relation to us in how we are seen and see the world—that are disrupting us from being who we want to be. I’m curious how life disseminates if we don’t choose who it is we are and where it is in having to make a decision is the illusion.

Though my project is not complete and there is much more I wish I could finely edit in this project I feel I got to explore the self through the psychological in adopting Abigail child’s time traveling cuts and exploring depicting self as it is depicted on video. More is to come.

Perfectly Made For You

Fiction Book in process

THE BLOWING OF WHEAT IN THE PLAINS OF KANSAS CREATES A WAVE

OVER THE LANDSCAPE AS THE SUN HAS BARE TIPPED OVER THE HILL.

THE SKY TILTS WITH COBALT,LAVENDER, AND FUSCIA AS LIGHT

BEGINS TO ENTER THE SCENE EVER SO SLOWLY. THERE IS A SENSE OF

SILENCE OVER THE SPACE THAT MAKES YOU WONDER WHERE ARE

THE HUMANS? THE SOUNDS OFTEN SO FAMILIAR TO US TEETERING THROUGH THE HILLS IN SUCH A WAY TO CONJURE FAMILIARITY TO A TIME IN A MEMORY. SOMEHOW WITHOUT THAT REFERENCE IT BECOMES TIMELESS.

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                                                                                         NARRATOR: A scrambling of places, of decisions we each make explained in the ripples of the wind kissing the grain. How can the truth ever be not told if it is this beautiful? Why would we sell it for something less? Protect it for something unheard of? You are here now and have been here before. There is a journey of life about to unfold that you will cherish for all its worth as you try to squeeze it into every crevice of your being. Because it is the essence of your purpose to tell this story; by reading these pages; by being the page in your study; by recalling once again the manuscript of the human heart at its best to beat once again the reason to live.

 

THE CAMERA BEGINS TO SLOWLY DRIFT OVER THE FIELDS FLYING FURTHER AWAY UNTIL IN THE FOCUS IS A SMALL DOT THAT BECOMES THE FOCUS AS IT SLOWLY TRICKLES DOWN TO UNCOVER WHAT IT IS

 

NARRATOR: (CONT'D) There amongst all the grand mysteries is where a nest is laid. Like a barrow at work weaving the colors to sing his love to him stands this wooden hollow sanctuary from the rain and dangers of lifes challenges. A place where a family dreams of growing their love story.

 

2. (THE CAMERA NOW IS AT GROUND LEVEL SWINGING AROUND THE HOUSE UNTIL IT LANDS IN FRONT OF THE MAILBOX)

 

NARRATOR: (CONT'D) See their legacy written in passing codes and lessons from the outside world peering in reaching for a glimpse of your radiant ascension for it is a story that seems to beckon this existence. The very anchor of this reason to see. Beyond any other stroll through the endless times we could be exploring and in telling it we preserve the moment. The sounds of the rusty flag that would raise to announce the next message to be sent out to the wandering Postworker if any still exist. The crash and laughter of a game being played by the inhabitants of this sun bleached haven. The stepping stones to the front porch pulled from the corners of the world it seems with ripples of sediment that blush the chemical romance of the earths secrets. Steps one could flutter from and never touch the dirt and straw between each island of rock. Somehow the sensation of joy fills the air. Closer now to the porch we see custom carved wood columns and trusses from some old lumber mill whom loved the French motifs of the 1700's. Like the slopes of a key that could unlock some great chest in the sky perhaps. And written alongside one of them in an uneraseable black marker were lines and dates with the word bugs next to each date. The laughter continues inside and we can see through the faceted glass door the fragmented picture on the other side. Two figures running back and forth trying to catch one another and somehow always staying out of reach. 

 

NARRATOR: (CONT'D) These rare gems dancing through the lens begin to take shape as the door seems to pass out of view.

 

BUGS: Show me the way to Egypt Mojsha

 

MOTHER: You'll have to get a bath first

 

BUGS: No the sand we must bring back sand easier if we stay dirty

 

MOTHER: Ah the great curator of sands I didn't notice your Prestige

 

BUGS: Thats right I prepare all the sand to make a bridge to the moon and rest over the house. That way I see everything

 

MOTHER: Wow that must be so much sand will you put it back when your done?

Bugs seems confused over the hypothetical situation as he pops his head out of a blanket

 

BUGS: How do I do that?

 

MOTHER: Oh I thought the master of Sand was a master that could do anything does the moon limit your power?

 

BUGS: Yeah I don't know much about Moon Sand

 

MOTHER: Well you will learn

 

BUGS: Will the moon come out tonight so I can start learning?

 

MOTHER: (laughs) No not tonight but in a week you'll see it out there for sure

Bugs Mother begins cleaning up the toys from their playing together she enters the kitchen to clean also lunch which they finished earlier

 

NARRATOR: These were their favorite moments where time stood still and the bane of existence never existed only the creation of the clouds overhead to the ground beneath their feet was important. The naming of the stars, the spirits, and the world to be explored was the important mission they played together. These are the moments to which the spectacle of life had chosen to witness over and over again to remember something forgotten throughout time. The sounds of the creaking boards beneath their feet creak sighs of relief to hold the weight of such familiar guardians that continue to sweep their bones clean every day. Night will come Days will pass and from every angle they were protected as they protected each other and one would want this for all of eternity if it were at all possible.

 

MOTHER: Can you help me and clean your toys?

 

BUGS: Oooooonoooooooo whhhhhyyyyyy?

 

MOTHER: We cant begin again without a clean slate

 

 BUGS: But I want to stay on the Mooooooooon!

 

CUT TO EXT. OUTSIDE OF THE PERIMETER OF THE TEETERING FENCE SURROUNDING THE HOUSE LIES A SMALL DIRT ROAD THAT HAS NOTHING IN SIGHT TYPICALLY BUT A CLOUD OF DUST IS VISIBLE IN THE DISTANCE CUT TO: INT. ON THE 2ND FLOOR IS A SPIRAL STAIR CASE THAT RISES UP INTO THE ATTIC CLOSED OFF FOR SOME REASON WITH A RUSTY CHAIN THE SPIRAL STAIRCASE LANDS IN THE MIDDLE OF A SMALL LIBRARY AND STUDY WITH A CHILDREN SECTION ON ONE SIDE AND A TALLER BOOKSHELF WITH ADULT LITERATURE ON THE OTHER. THERE ARE STREWN TOYS UP HERE DRIBBLING DOWN THE WRAP AROUND STAIRS TO THE 1ST FLOOR.

 

BUGS: Something is coming mother! I hear it already!

 

MOTHER: Alright but before you go outside make sure to...

The Front Door Slams and the cutlery and dishes rattle minutely with its shudder. (Sigh) clean your mess...

 

BUGS: What is it? A Spaceship? The President? A Runaway? Dinosaurs?

 

MOTHER: Maybe its all of those things Bugs!

 

BUGS: NO!

 

MOTHER: All of them and more!

 Bug's Mother comes out of the kitchen with her hands covered in soap and begins to impersonate a leader of a dinosaur alien race coming down to planet earth.

 

BUGS: No mom stop what is it really? No Mom stop! Stoooop iiiit! Not the bubbles I'm turning into a bubble-saurus. Outside we hear the sound of a car coming to a slow stop the engine still running as the door is being opened and closed. Bugs is able to gaze barely while fighting off his mothers affection and playfulness through the window to see a cloudy image of a man in white stepping towards the house with a hand filled with something he then screeched open a small metal container, place whatever was in his hand, and then leave in a rush to get out of before either one of them could step outside and see what was going on.

 

NARRATOR: There was in witnessing that which was beyond perception, which has always been there, a sense of nostalgia as if that's where the past waits and the future awaits. Bugs had at these times a sense of some great knowing beyond what his little self could imagine even. Perhaps he even construct the very things his mind wanted to see even if they had yet to be true. It led him often to an uneasy feeling. Could some omniscience be on to him and planning to stop his ever expanding consciousness to a halt before its too late. How often would be this feeling was growing by the day as if some great motion of passing was on its way.

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